已經很久沒有在LJ寫blog了。。。

不過因我現在的心情都很想blog一下， 很無聊吧?

最近都沒怎麼， 都是這樣生活， 在大學的accommodation。當初都還可以， 覺得
和我住得人都ok, 還可以， 但不知不覺， 這一月特別覺得他們很煩， 他們是沒有
腦的嗎??

或者你覺得我太介意跟別人住。。。都不是啦， 沒什麼問題，我其實很容易滿足，
可是太好人， 太soft。 連清理別人的rubbish都是要我管!

合理來說， 應該每一次都是輪著來掉， 但不是。 Rubbish bin 滿的時候， 他只
會用新的袋子放在旁邊， pisses me off! 無非不可以掉出去嗎? 你真的那麼忙嗎
? 自私。

第2個問題都是最近發生， 就是不清理好自己的東西， 放在kitchen counter 的
東西。。。真噁心! 我都不好意思用， 又不好意思說。

還有第3。 冰箱。 你不能為別人想一想嗎? 這個世界只有你兩人嗎? 我忙到就快死，
你們偏偏住到像大王太后!! 我現在不管。 你們自己來吧。 就當我不在。我累啦。



現在舒服很多了。 phew ~~~~

It's no surprise that I'm not a regular blogger here but let's keep this post something of meaning shall we?

Since I started university which was back in September...I think I have learned a lot about myself and about other people. I have grown as a person but similarly, I have no really changed that much except maybe socially, but also maybe not.

I started watching Daria earlier this week (or was it last week? can't really recall...), something that I kinda grew up with but never particularly understood because I was too young and not in high school yet. I think I'm like Daria in a lot of ways actually. Like Daria, I realy don't bother with a lot of people, especially people who are suferficial or "idiots". People have this thing with "quiet" people. I really don't disagree with the statement that I am quiet because it is true. But I think it takes for one personality to be with certain types of personalities and not ALL. Except, people really just assume you're quiet and boring.

I'm sure everyone has their own interesting story to tell...just a matter of fact of who's the right person to tell it to. Making friends with someone is pretty much like finding a puzzle piece in your life I'd say. You need it to complete a picture. If you don't then you simply won't bother. That's me.

...and to be honest, unlike my younger teenage years, I don't want to force myself in a group of people I can't connect with. But right now...right now...or since 6th form actually, I've made my friends for life :)

It is SUCH a lie when people say high school is the best time of your life.

I started university a few months ago and I have to say that it has been a change to what I am used to. I left home for the first time but I am glad that I made that decision. In a way I wasn't as homesick as I thought I would be - I have survived well! Haha :D (oh and I'm not a bad cook either).

I have met many new friends and learned many new things...makes me appreciate my course more actually. Pattern cutting and making of clothes really don't come easy.

In 3 weeks time, I'll be back home for Christmas...can't wait for that as I haven't had a break in a long time....although in a way I don't remember having my weekends free until now.

On an end note, Aston's voice makes this song:

It's been a while since I actually blogged of my experiences, my life. Lately, life has been pretty good on my side. I have a great family. I went out last night with friends to celebrate my best friend's birthday...it was a messy night (not like usual) but nevertheless fun, and some great memories to take with me when I go to university.

My mother came into my room today. My mother isn't quite the type who gives me lectures...well she does it now and again but I guess that's something that parents will do no matter what. Anyways, instead of really giving me a lecture, she gave me a very loving talk...how when she was my age, she was also very energetic and playful, loved to live life to the full and experience new things. Honestly, I see my mum as a role model here...she's so caring and understanding of what I do these days (clubbing/partying being one LOL) yet she will always remind me to be careful, to protect myself because I'm a girl and to not be easy (this made me laugh...and fyi, I am not easy, but hey, advice is advice XD). I could not have a better mother. She is the best, truly <3

Childhood memories are the essence of our identity - who we are, what we are known as, what has moulded us into our present self and possibly future self too. By using embroidering, these memories are gone over again and again in hope for the memories to stay eternal although mentally that is not true as we can lose our memory.

All I can say is wow, what a year. A lot of things have happened and I think I have grown up as much as I have felt young this year. Like seriously. But I think 19 will finally be the year where detachment comes (although quite frankly, I love being young, being dependent, I admit that)...

This year has really been a crazy year for me - mainly in the case of education and finding out who I am, all this stuff about preparing your career. Actual headache. But it's things you think about right? It has been a really interesting year though. I have met a lot of different people - some being extremely open-minded and most importantly, I have met those hoping to make it in the Arts industry. That's important. Because before this year, I felt very much alone in what I wanted to do. I still am but it's reassuring to know that there are others who are also trying (though not necessarily in the same specialist area as you). Not to mention, I have met some of the nicest people ever - how can there be such nice people in this day and age?!

I'm very excited for this coming September - though it's going to be pretty frightening since I'm very much NEW to the course. But I really hope to start with simple techniques and projects in the summer just to inspire me a bit more...I really do. I think it'll be a hard year and I will have a difficult one too but I guess at least I know I have to prepare for it.

But anyways, this project...this final major project that I finally completed about 2 weeks or so ago...I made 2 garments from it and I'm so proud of them! I'll have to upload the photos later as I'm not on my laptop now but eeee, need to make this summer worthwhile since I think I have pretty much wasted this week off!!

其實已經很久沒有blog啦. 今次blog, 有好多東西要說出來, 但不知道在哪裡開始...今
年來, 發生了很多的事情啦. 或者, 這就叫做, "改變", "長大"...可能在我blog,
這一個entry特別成熟, 因為每一句都會是真心話, 是屬於我的人生的turning point吧
?

今年, 我覺得特別辛苦...找大學, 去見大學, 去prepare portfolio...其實我都不
知道是不是給我自己太多壓力, 但相信每一件事情的發生都有原因! 我見是見到一
間大學, 但其他的, 我"失敗"了. 我居然哭. 哭什麼? 我為什麼只知道的是哭?!
我都希望我將來做一個堅強的人, 但不行啦. 今年都是因為大學的煩惱, 哭了4, 5
次啦. 其實, 想回來, 覺得我自己很差勁...但都是因為我不相信自己, 沒有覺得我
自己那麼棒.

那晚上, 對我來說, 很難過....如果覺得失去了理想可以心痛, 那我承認, 我感覺
到心痛! 最後我說給我媽聽, 這一個懷消息...當然她有一點失望, 但最後, 我都是
他的女兒, 才會得到她一直以來給我的信用支持. 我現在想清楚了. 其實我怕的不
是自己的失敗...只是如果我失敗, 我家人會有什麼的反應呢?

我大哥告訴我, 有點事情是防不了...要發生就會發生...因為人生中, 終會有底,
有樂, 也因為這樣, 我就 碰到了"底". 或者, 這不是底的, 命中, 可能註定我在那
一間學校吧? 這一間學校都不錯啊...又比較適合我. 說真的, 我去探那間學校的時
候, 覺得很開心, 很有啟發性! 嗯. 我想我要勞力吧? 將那幾個失敗變成他們的損
失.

I think this is actually my first post of 2011 which is quite sad considering it is March now. Things have been crazy this year so far...my work load has been a lot but I think the results have paid off and will continue to pay off right through to the end of this course that I'm doing now :) I finally feel like I'm doing something I'm completely passionate about and only hope to get onto the fashion design course that I have always wanted to do. That'll be a highlight I think ^^ really cannot wait for things to un-roll!
At the moment, I have no idea where I am going for university...I have 1 unconditional offer which is just outside London, so if I do not get anymore offers I will go there. That's not a completely bad thing as I know the course is actually really great! But of course, it's best to be in the city.

It's even more crazy how fast this year has gone by. It's already March and next week I am off for 5 weeks. That's a long time but before you know it, I'll be back in uni again and it'll be May T___T
I am currently working on a project now which is basically my final exam...things are actually going smoothly...better than I had expected since I had no idea what I was doing in the first place O_O but happy accidents happen you know :D

I feel like everyday I am learning and becoming more and more independent...gosh I feel so grown up nowadays but I think what is really changing me is the fact that I'm deciding things for the future. Like deciding what course I want to do for a degree and then eventually going through the application process...now that I've done that, so much prep work but the moment you get results, you see more of your future...I think that's what makes me feel so grown up right now. Yes. I've waited a long time to study fashion design and now is the chance even though it's hard work...I do wonder all the time though, what would happen if I didn't take an Art and Design pathway?

Christmas is already over and what awaits us is a new year yet again for new beginnings and dreams to go forward once again. I enjoy that side of the new year because it feels refreshing and hopeful as if you can actually start again :) but I feel as though the older I get (which btw, I'm not that old) happiness still exists but not as easily...you have to go embrace it. That kinda sucks but I guess it's only logical otherwise the meaning of life would be nothing...

Sometimes I still very much feel like a child actually but because I'm already an adult since earlier this year, I have had to adapt to making decisions, preparing for future plans. I suppose in a way I can become tired of it yet I can't avoid it. I wish at times I could crawl into wonderland and be a child and not have to think about things.

Oh, and as much as I love honesty in people's words, I wish some people...and absolutely, the MOST closest to you (parent or sibling) would say things in a nicer manner. It's always their words that hurt the most...urgh! Excuse my language...but for fuck's sake!

Wow, it's almost another end to yet another year. I hope everyone has had a relatively good year (relatively because I know everyone has their ups and downs in life, nothing is perfect) and most importantly, a good end to the year with this Christmas and also New Year coming up next week. May 2011 start with a bang and end with a bang :)

2010 has been a very busy year for me. I feel like I have been running since, for the future. Everything I do seems to be for the future (not to make myself sound like a superhero of some sort...) and there is no doubt 2011 will be the same.

Here are my new years resolutions!

1) Get into university and finally learn about fashion design!!!!
2) Master the sewing machine... (well ok, realistically, maybe not master..haha but do more with it?)

I can't actually think of anymore... O_O But yea, may all come well for the new year and bless everyone ^^